done and starting again~

done with my 2nd professional exam and passed it already
which means i get to enter sem 10 with pride...hehehe
but thats already the past...
no point talking about it anymore..
i won't say i am doing it good anyway but hey, that's about it..
i have to look forward to this last sem into my doctorate degree..
damn, that's scary~
but haven't i said that i will keep fighting?
yep, that, i will do~

adios 2010, welcome 2011

p/s: i am off to kuching for 3days 2 night...wee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so sad

when it comes to the differences between religions, people should watch "my name is khan"
then you will know..humans are all the same..regardless of their belief, creed and race..color..
we all have the same red blood, share the same round earth, the same shining sun, the same beautiful stars..
what differs us from others is our deeds...you may be a Muslim, but if you act like a person with no heart and sympathy, making other people's life miserable, can you proudly say that you are a Muslim..? or if not proudly, can you even say you are a Muslim??

do not use Islam as a reason to make you politically successful..
it just makes you look stupid..
we are all Muhammad saw's beloved ummats..he says so when he is dying..he never says his ummat are only the Muslims.. we are all his ummat..
he never forbids non-Muslim to come to the mosque wearing whatever they wanted..
he didn't even get angry when a non-Muslim went into the mosque and pee in it...he only clean it up quietly and advices the person, which make the non-Muslim opens his heart and becomes a Muslim..
whats more just for an exercise with all the other Muslims, would you imagine the prophet will be ever be angry about it??

isn't that the beauty of Islam?
it has never make restrictions to anything at all...
it all depends on your heart and niat..

people around the world (apart from Malaysia) enters the mosque regardless of their religion to learn about Islam..freely...and the Muslim brothers there greets them with pleasure in whatever cloth they are wearing...why can't we become like them instead of shove people away and tarnish the beauty of Islam??

it sickens me to the core...

it's not over yet~

i despises exams..
however, i don't deny the need to follow its establishment..else i'll be stuck with this quarter a million loan or maybe more if i protests against exams..
despite that, i still fight to get thru...
unable to go against what i hate does not mean i am a coward..
but i am a  fighter who takes challenges
i still need to fight for the betterment of my future, my country, my family, my hereafter..
because fighting is what humans are made for...
what i am made for

i will never stop fighting...
the outcome may be undesirable but maybe that's because i am not fighting hard enough just yet..
or maybe my plans are not working out well
or maybe those plans are just not good..
and that deserving success is not my option just yet..
well, fine~
at least i know i have done my part and i will continue doing so in a more organized strategies
with higher spirit...
with bold heart and bright head
so that i can proudly say that i am His servant who has NEVER quit..

tomorrow is D-day~

D-day being death day...
hahahahahha
sonoknye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sok last paper...and paper yang paling mencabar tapi paling senang nak tanda pasal sumbat je masuk mesin and mesin tandekan...
hebatkan mesin tuh? aku siyes nak g jumpe ngan mesin tuh and kasik jahanam same die pasal kalo org yang tande, tendency untuk tersilap tanda tuh tinggi...hahahahaha

bongoks..
seperti biase, malam neh aku takmo study
mau makan kek and berangan ape nak bwat kuching nanti (hopefully tercapaila hajatku ini~) hehehehe
drooliinngg~~

a post before mandi~

3 papers down...2 more to go

i was just hoping that someone out there will say, you are doing really well and i am proud of you..

so that i will be able to walk these next 2 papers with at least the smallest spring under my feet..3 papers can almost always determine just how badly or good-ly you have done...

but its only a cross-sectional views of what you are capable of..

you prepared well, studied well and you forced your brain to work to its fullest remembering the important details..and when the exam come, your heart just simply fails you..but remember that God is and always still there..He who never fails anyone like human did to another human being...

exams are not a diagnostic procedure to confirm that your brains are just empty...

its there to rank you~

in ALLAH we trust~

“Barangsiapa bertakwa kepada Allah, nescaya Dia akan mengadakan baginya jalan keluar.

Dan memberi rezeki kepadanya tanpa di sangka-sangka.

Dan barangsiapa yang bertawakal kepada Allah, nescaya Allah akan mencukupkannya.

Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusan yang dikehendakiNya.

Sesungguhnya Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bagi tiap-tiap sesuatu.”

At-Talaq 2-3

lepas geram

 selepas menangis seperti si gila kerane stress dengan exam tadi (ye, saye sangat2 depress sebab terase diri ini sangat2la bodoh tahap cipan langit ke lapan belas), make malam tuh kami meng-treat ourselves dengan foods!! hahahaha

kedai neh agak baru la tapi da lame la...(mende aku cakap neh)

name die red wok

and juadah die more kepade chinese and thai food...steamboat pon ade..buffet pon ade...

tapi meskipon kitorang neh tengah stress, tapi takdelah deserve plak makanan yang cam mahal gile sampai rm30 seorang kan...gile sangat tuh..

aku makan nasik paprik je...tapi memang kalo korg tengok tade rupe nasi paprik yang normal yang biase korang tgk tuhla..nasik die macam normal la kan, tapi lauk die daging yang berkuah kaler hitam taruk cendawan dan cili benggala (HAHAHAHA) and rase die lebih kepade blackpepper punye cooking and memang sedap amatlaaa...memang harge die berbaloi dengan rasa yang boleh dapat kat hotel tuh...ngaa..teringat pon da terliur...seb bek da pokai

die plak makan nasik ayam masam manis...yang neh memang aku tabik spring tahap meloncat ah....ayam die digoreng crispy and ade kuah sour yang manis juge...gandingan mantap yang membuatkan aku takley lupe..haihhhh...sedap weyh!!! and aku tak tipu kalo aku cakap sedap pasal kalo die rase biase2 je aku lagi suke dok diam..hahaha

and air plak aku minum ais blended peach yang memang best gile...masam manis yang tak terlalu over..sedang2 and memang kene ngan taste bud aku..pait plak minum mango...die cam puree ke ape tapi kat dasar die mango..for him, aku tau die ade kedai air mango faverit die, so that one yang ktorg minum malam tuh comes second la kot...

harge tak sampai rm25 pon...and kalo die mahal pon berbaloi la pasal kualiti makanan die da tahap hotel..
jangan riso, halal punye kedai neh~
aku pegi pon sebab ade sorang lecturer aku da pergi bawak famili die..so tryout aku punye turn la eh..
kalo sesape nak pegi, tempat neh sebenarnye aku rase susah sikit nak carik kalo org tak familiar dengan area bangi...tapi lets say sesape nak pegi gak redah, ianye terletak di area seksyen 7, bandar baru bangi...taman kajang impian ye..(pelik dok? kejap bangi kejap kajang tapi itulah hakikatnye...huhu)

red wok, ko tggu ah bile aku ade duit nnt aku konfem datang lagik...hahahha

have faith in Allah~

MAHER ZAIN: INSHAALLAH

Every time

You feel like you cannot go on

You feel so lost and that you're so alone

All you see is night

And darkness all around

You feel so helpless you can't see which way to go

Don't despair

And never lose hope

'Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah

You'll find your way

Every time

You commit one more mistake

You feel you can't repent and that it's way too late

You're so confused

Wrong decisions you have made

Haunt your mind and your heart is full shame

But don't despair

And never lose hope

Coz Allah is always by your side

Turn to Allah

He's never far away

Put your trust in Him

Raise your hands and pray

Ya Allah

Guide my steps, don't let me go astray

You're the only one who can show me the way

Show me the way

InshaAllah

We'll find the way

"ya ALLAH aku hanya berserah kepada kekuasaanMu...seandainya kejayaan aku menjadikan aku lebih dekat denganMu dan menjadikan aku insan yang mampu membantu hamba2Mu, maka Kau bantulah aku untuk mendapatkan kejayaan ini...seandainya tidak, sesungguhnya Kaulah Tuhan yang Maha Adil lagi Penyayang..."

pass ke tak?

huk..
saye da nak exam hari jumat neh..
kalo kantoi make tak masuk ah sem 10 iaitulah sem terakhir..
saye sangat pening..nak bagi pass ke tanak..
sebab, kalo pass, sape plak kate lepas tuh dah tade exam?
and sape plak kate kalo pass, exam lepas neh lagi senang dari yang saye nak amek neh??
sigh~
kalo tak pass plak, sampai bile saye nak jadik budak sem 9 eh?
takkan takmo keje...?
keje pon satu hal...sape kate keje best?
sonok ah pasal dapat duit, tapi pengorbanan kerje tuh bukan calang2...
last2 duit banyak tapi tataw nak bwat ape...
hurm~
macam tah pape plak kan?
tuhla, sape soh gatai nak amek course neh (saye ke yang nak ke sape yang nak sebenarnye ye?)
lagi satu hari tinggal and then exam akan bermule...
saye tataw saye da sedia ke belum ke...
doa dan tawakal jela sebab kalo nak ikotkan buku neh bertindan2 memang sampai kene kapan pon tataw sempat abis ke tak kalo nak bace semua..
semoga ilmu yang saye study neh diberkatilah so walaupon tak dapat nak bace semua, tapi still dapat pass exam..
aim saye tak tinggi mane sangat pon..
apelah sangat kalo dapat dean's list ke distinction ke..dlu dapat distinction pon tak dapat pape...hahaha
so sekarang takmo ah bende2 kebendaan neh...just nak kasik pass and jadik orang yang berfungsi bile dah kerja nanti...at least tau la ape nak bwat bile berdepan dengan sebarang masalah..
hurm~
boleh ke pass ye skrg neh?
tengok semua orang study bagai nak gila, tapi saye rase seperti sangat complacent sahaje...
padahal hari2 pon bukak buku..tapi macam tatau ape2 jugak lagik..
blur dah..
tataw dah ape nak bace lagi..
mungkin continue jelah ape yang dibuat skrg..
dari tak bwat pape seperti mengup-date blog..

MAKAN BUDAK!!!!!!!!!!

ye tak?
hahahahaha

the oddity~

went to natural muzium aka muzium alam semulajadi at precint 15 putrajaya and saw excellent rocks which is of course not the normal rocks you'll see in your daily life..i am not a rock lover, unless you count the ones that sits on my fingers (none~)...though i'd really love to have one of those meteor rocks that they've turned into rings, lockets and earrings which they are selling there and kinda pricey but of course they are rocks from the moon that landed on the earth man!! how cool is that??? you might not be able to bring your love ones to the outer space (even Sheikh Muszaffar can't do that, poor darling wifey~hahaha) but you definitely can bring the outer space thingy for you love ones...hehehehehe..so here are some pics...unfortunately i forgot to snap those lovely meteor rings and lockets...shite~

this one has got some fossils on it...i thought it was roses frozen to the stone but actually they are snails...hahahaha

this one definitely has got a leaf on it...cool ehh

this is a stone with multiple dinosaur eggs stucked on it...i thought it was a dinosaurs's gallbladder with stones in it..huk~ cute right? stones that become stones

i dunno what this is..it says there dessert rose but it most definitely does not resemble any kind of roses that i know

this is a stone of some type that i cannot spell that has been carved into a statue made for someone by someone from a gobbledegook island..hihi

ooooo...i love this stone cez it looks like the organization of my plates in my kitchen..har (yes, i do have a VERY wide imagination)

this is a thing called small dean (i am NOT joking)..to whomever that aspires to become a dean, maybe you need one of this in your living room...for luck..(yeah, i am joking~) haha

ah, a long lost friend of his...hahahaha...see, the same shirt color~auww so sweet...harharhar (i am DEFINITELY joking)

the reason that i am dead and being reborn again is that this bryde whale ate me and got himself preserved so that i am being released again...

mandrhfbgreyhbvdkjsnasdbehjfbwehedawsn!!!

marah dan bosan dengan 2 bende ini pada hari ini:

1. setelah sekian lama tak bukak paper selain dari kosmo, make arini adelah hari bersejarah bagiku sebab bukak another paper berheading biru...paper tuh ade la dalam 10 muke surat tuh and each helaian aku rase nak muntah je...bukan sebab bende tuh busuk or ade gambar scary-mary tapi each headline die sume dok mengutuk orang tak hengat...menyampah betol la...dahla mengutuk kat dalam TV..neh dalam paper nak tambah lagi...memang siryes aku tak tipu neh...buuuwwwweeekkkk~~~aku tak kate la paper lain tade bende2 tuh. tapi dah paper yang neh yang aku bukak, so naseb ko la...hahahahaha...last2, aku campak terus paper tuh ketepi...seb bek selame neh tak penah beli paper macam tuh, at least tak membazir duit aku beli bende yang taunye mengutuk orang n tataw pun kesahihannye...(lucky aku bukan artis...har9)

2. crazy motorcyclist yang tak penah belajar care2 nak tengok dan menggunekan lampu isyarat..bengong betolla...tak sedar diri ke yang kalo sebarang kemalangan berlaku, pemandu motosikal akan terime akibat paling dasat berbanding orang lain? most of them die on the spot kot...untuk orang2 neh, aku nasihatkan la, sile la jadik selfish sikit (ke sebab selfish jadik camnie?)...ko takmo pedulik pasal orang lain takpe ah bai, tapi sile pedulik pasal diri sendrik ye...huh~

sekian~

go computer...GO!!!!

not some sort of race..yep~
its just so amazing that even when my laptop is lazing about in another country city and serving another owner.. i can still get my blog and facebook and emails functioning...
n i am not supposed to do so...cez that's the whole point of leaving my own laptop in the faraway land~duh~

supposed to be having a revision class today but i don't feel like going...i guess, classes are just not good for my stress level, else i might need some BP pills...

nervous breakdown

i hate exam and what it did to me...

my circadian sleep wake cycle is totally disrupted
that i cannot sleep at all at night which is very well cez i can spend the night reading or praying...
and then theres the light-headedness during subuh due to lack of sleep..
so i sleep after subuh which is SO NOT VERY WELL..cez, sleeping after subuh means bad luck right? but i have been sleeping after subuh for all my life...kekeke
but the shitty thing about trying to sleep is that sleep just won't come because of this painful shoulders..
i just can't get into the at-least-comfortable position to sleep, what's more getting into the most comfortable position and its irritating the hell out of me i almost scream into nothingness at 6.00am in the morning which is also supposed to be bad luck...
i HATE this shoulder..

and i woke up at 1.00pm....and wondering how sleep can actually withdraw my thoughts out of my already empty brain and thick skull (i sound like someone i despise!) and causes me to be unable to remember anything i read the night before....
well, no wonder i just can't sleep...sleep is a scary, thought-catching thing that haunts the night and makes me a zombie when i woke up and the thought of not knowing anything only makes life worse...

damn whoever creates exams and its establishment...who are you? may you rot in hell....dear trees, please pray with me, because the whole wide world knows that exams are the many sole cause of your extinction...

right place, right moment?

i am currently at home...

and i am in a middle of my study leave....

get it??

oh maybe you don't get it...

let me make this easy...

home and study leave is the worst combination ever..~

i can't concentrate at all...

and home makes me feels like: eh, what the heck is exam for~ i don't need it...huuu~

bad..bad...this is real BAD!!!

oh but what the heck? (i just said that a second ago)

i don't need exams...i NEED my family~ hehehehe

i have watched Princess and the Frog for the how many times and only yesterday i understood the moral of the story...which is, prioritize your objective in life and do not let life hazes your views on what you really need and what you want..they ain't the same thing~

begin with the end in mind

penah tak rase pelik bile tengah2 drive and then terserempak dengan trefik jem (trefik jem tuh kawan aku ke?) and then kite pon redahla jem tuh dengan hati terbuke n kadang2 sempit pasal geram sangat or nak terkencing sangat ke cirit ke period dah bocor ke and then tetibe jem tuh hilang tanpe sebarang tande2 penyebab kepade jem macam eksiden or roadblock mahupon trefik light?

stress kan?

tapi sebenarnye itu sume berlaku kerane mungkin sume pemandu2 (or at least mereka2 yang menggunekan jalan yang same seperti aku) tak tahu mereka nak pegi mane, or tak reti nak merancang nak pegi kemane....yerla, bile da tataw mane nak pergi dah tentu tataw nak gune lane mane kan? pastu bile suddenly ternapak macam nak kene exit serta merta, make kelam kabut la nak tukar lane..macam mane tak jem macam tuh? yang peliknye, banyak plak keta buat macam tuh...ape, sume orang tetibe interested nak pegi hala yang aku pegi ke? huhu...

seboleh2 jadikla penggune jalan yang bertimbang rasa...kite tataw mungkin org2 dibelakang kite tengah ade emergency ape2 kan? kalo orang tuh teraniaya kerane kite, kite tetap menanggung dosa...mudahkan keje org lain, inshaAllah kerja kite akan mudah juge~

plan perjalanan anda, bukan plan destinasi je tapi plan lah jugak lane mane nak ikot ye...huhuhu~