a lot of things to be done...
many papers needs to be written on...
many people needs interviewing, sharing of their pain, their worries, requiring reassurance..
and suddenly i feel like i am standing in the middle of a hectic world, watching as people walks by with scowls, smiles, laugh, tears, frowns and not to forget, clueless on their faces, papers, begs, trolleys, books, computers in their hands...and i am the only person who doesn't understand what's going on..
though then i suddenly remembered a few details i need to find from all the resources that i can lay my hands on....
i really hope that i know what i am doing and not just parroting whatever other people are doing, hoping that all my actions make sense for me and other people...and hoping beyond hope that whatever things that i am doing now and in the future truly benefits those who has been working really hard to help pay my educations (mostly my parents and tax-payers)...
i am so worried if i might just want to stop thinking and making senses and then turn into one of those zombies who only follow orders and not knowing half of the things that they are doing....because somehow i feel like i am being one already, reckless and careless....
God forbid~
1 comment:
you won't be a robot. you'll be an excellent doctor.
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