hopefully~

i hope, when i am done with med school, i will be able to look back at time and say, thank goodness i did not sacrifice my weekends for things i do not like to do...which is to say, i will be able to wake up late, lazy-mazy, don't have to take the freakin cold bath early in the morning, indulge myself with this darn computer, listen to music as loud as i wanted to, stay in bed dreaming about whatever etc..yeap, so hopefully, when i finally HAVE to sacrifice my weekends which is to say that there will be no more weekends for me when i have finished studying, i will be pretty much satisfied and feels that i deserve the torture...huhuhuhu...

last time, when i was at school, i hated wednesday cez that was the co-curriculum day and we were made compulsory to march in the evening...oh my goodness, i HATE marching like anything...not because of the heat since our school is next to the sea, but because i don't freaking understand any words coming out of the instructor at all...so what i did was hide myself in one of the unused toilets and sleep or read books or gossiping with my other friends who also hates going to march..and yeah, i did that all year til i finished schooling...i guess i'd rather smell of toilet then having to make a fool of myself by going contralateral to whatever the commander says...

well..i thought i can getaway with it....but guess what, i was sentence to a 3 months of PLKN once i have finished SPM...
i cried like a baby...but then i look back, and think...oooohhh, so this is the punishment that i get for not attending the marching practice everyday..fine~we'll see about it...so yeah, instead of marching once a week, i get to march everyday morning and evening...hahahahahahhaha...but then, i do it with open heart because i have missed this marching thingy for 2 years of my secondary school...and i actually loved it because the commander taught us clearly on all the commands they give so i understood it and is able to avoid myself from making a fool of myself...yeap...it was fun, having to do things by force, but accepting it with open heart because i deserved it...it was not bad at all...in fact, i missed those 3 month so much!

well, am not saying that i am good enough to be enjoying in the weekends without studying...in fact, i am just an average student...i don't even know how i managed to come to this level...but i am soo afraid of graduating when i have not enjoyed the life of a medical student yet which includes waking up late on a weekend...huhu...i don't want to regret later...

so in order to be able to pass and live a happy weekend, i must now vow that i MUST study on weekdays, or else, i wouldn't deserve my weekends...yes...SET~