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Sunday, February 13, 2011

going back in time?

another day gone, another responsibility has been thrown over your shoulder..
today you are a primary school student, the next day you are a secondary school student..
time flies by and before you know it, you are already an employee working your ass out for some living..not only for you, but all those whom you have to care for...
when you were a student, you crave to become an adult soon enough because you wanted to runaway from the burden of add maths, SPM, history classes, physics, biology and chemistry...and runaway from being stucked in a boarding school which is so suffocating...
then you are suddenly an adult already who is carrying the burden of the world...younger generations looks up at you hoping that you could bring a better future for them, elder generations looks down on you and wants you to become as good as they are or even better so that you can lead the country...your peers are running towards their goal and fulfilling their responsibilities as a human being, as God's creation, as a child, a mother, father and a leader...and all you wanted is to go back in time and become a child again where add maths, history, physics etc would not question you on whether you have been a good citizen or not...being carefree again...

this, might be the view of many...
but for me, if i have the chance to go back in time, i will never ever do it again...because if i do so, it means another cycle of traumatic primary and secondary school experiences (i think i have never been happy at those time), a frustrating and disappointing matriculation period, a distressful national service (though i quite enjoy it and considers it the only best part of my past life) and a foolish, painful, upsetting ordeal in my pre-clinical years....
yes, i am living a better life now...surrounded by people, yet still faraway from them....

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