bile yang atas dan yang bawah bersatu....

bile yang di atas dan dibawah bersatu..

terciptalah satu perasaan yang tak mampu dinikmati org laen melainkan yang menyatukannya sendiri...

indah...

menakjubkan...

puas..

puas sangat....

bile yang diatas dan dibawah bersatu,

yang satu jadi beribu

yang tak bermakne akhirnya mencipta senyuman...

dan nafas ku tarik dalam2

sambil melihat badan yang telah kusatukan

menjadi RAMA-RAMA!

heeee..comelkan butterfly kaitan saye????? yeayyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

apebile da dapat hobi baru...huhuhuh

this weekend has been hectic for me..mane tak nye, my in law sume datang dok umah..

umah dari sunyi sepi jadi meriah...agak best r bile ade org reramai neh...teringat time kengkawan sume melepak disini...tp skrg nmpknye sume bz je...tapela...

so aku kene masak 1 hari je..tuh pon ntk lunch so i am not so dead la kan...

apart from that ktorg makan kat luar...

and berjalan2...adusss penat gleee...

dari nilai smpaila ke KL...

segale masjid da masuk...i mean literally la cez aku tak penah masuk masjid wilayah ...nehla 1st time usha masjid wilayah...huhu

pegi KLCC usha petrosains dr luar cez sgt ramai org...skrg ade show on music science ape kebende ntah...but then yang bestnye masuk souvenir punye kedai...sgt menarikk!!

and kat KLCC jugek aku mendapat mainan bau iaitu KNITTING KIT yang ku beli kat toys r us...so aku dapat kad toys r us...!! aku nak blajar knitting, buat mainan...nnt bile da pandai aku nak blajar care2 knitting yang laen so bole la bwat bende2 laen plak..stakat neh aku da jugak beli buku pasal knitting neh....semangat gilerrr..hohoho..and i am sooo happy sebab dapat bwat the basic ones by teaching myself....yeahhh....now i know i can follow instructions...huk9

my new toys~

with my family...and the one next to me is my faverit bro in law...dunno y..myb sbb die cute kot..hahaha..

my new card: TOYS R US card..yeahhhh!

pastuh adela g masjid besi, alamanda, sunway pyramid, restoran haslam yang sgt ridiculous pnye mahal (rm156 untuk 10 org makan nasik campur yang tadela amende sgt...!!)..pastuh makan kat chop n steak...fuh..bahagie!

bertapa kat masjid besi...i am next to the kolan whch forms the borders of the mosque..cool eh??\

yg bestnye dapat adiah jugek...iaitu baju dress from aussie (gift from my bro in law) and sepasang kain ntk dibwat baju kurung from mak mentua aku...hohoho..best3...

sekarang umah da sunyi semula...dah tade pape nak look forward da except pegi kelas sok...aihh..malasnye, rse cam nak bungkus diri sndrik dalam selimut and tak bangun2 da...hohoho..sesuke je aku neh..

selamatkan aku!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

in law nak datang and nak soh goreng pisang...

mane aku reti..

mama tak penah aja pon sbb die salu gorengkan untuk aku..

i am jes a moderate cook....takpon bole ckp agak bebal r bab2 merase neh...

kenape dorg kene datang mase aku tade maid?

sesape tolong r culik aku tym neh gak...

sedeynyeeeeeeeeeee

nak mama!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oleh kerane nak menghilangkan rase tak best neh make aku buat keje ini:

neh gambar tym kat cameron highlands...owh yang smart sket uh mase nga dinner kolej

cameroniaannn

my family time raye...

my little sister growing up!

date kat floria

dekat cameron ngn family!

p/s: patotnye time neh laa aku bersiap siaga tanye mama cane nak masak dengan cunted nye...tp..aku lapar sesgt and tade mood!!! burn weekend ku ini...huk9..

osteoarthritis...kebesaran Allah~

ok,saye buat bende ni senang je nak paham....

dekat semua sendi kite neh ade satu menda alah neh name die rawan..ala yang macam kat ayam tuh kan ade tulang lembut yang kite bole kunyah tanpe risau akan tercekik tuh...so dalam bahase omputeh nye ialah cartilage~

dalam kondisi yang dinamakan osteoarthritis ni atau pendekkan jadik OA, tulang rawan kite neh da haus...ade banyak sebab yang menyumbang kepade terjadiknye OA neh...antaranye bile usia sudah meningkat, bile sendi tuh pernah kene kemalangan atau pon bile kite jarang sangat gune sendi tuh...

bile kite ade penyakit neh, sendi kite neh akan rse sangat2 saket....saketnye time2 petang atau malam bile kite da puas gunekan sendi tuh...dan akan hilang bile kite rehat atau makan ubat tahan sakit..akan tibe satu ketike, yang sendi tuh da haus sgt agaknye, smpaikan sakit tuh da tak akan hilang....kadang2 kite akan rse macam susah sgt nak gerakkan sendi tuh bile da lame tak gune (stiffness)...haa, so bile jadi macam ni, cepat2laa datang jumpe doktor yee...

ade byk care nak rawat penyakit neh....tuh bergantung dengan keadaan kesihatan kite dan juge faktor umur...pertame sekali doktor akan cube rawat kite dengan ubat2an...dan care2 konservatif sepertinye fisioterapi, pakai alat2 bantuan untuk berjalan macam tongkat ke...dan kite juge akan dinasihatkan untuk mengurangkan berat badan supaye sendi kite tu tak byk sgt tanggung berat (ni terutamanye bile sendi yang kene attack tu sendi lutut)...bile sume ni tak jalan, barulaa operation akan dilakukan..itu pon ade byk stage yang mane sy takmau nak cite sbb pnjg sgt2....huk9

ape yang sy dapat taw pasal penyakit neh yg pling menarik untuk dishare adelah tentang satu kajian yang telah dijalankan oleh sekumpulan researcher dekat singapore...sebenarnye OA neh walaupon bunyik macam penyakit org tua, boleh menyerang semua peringkat umor...so org2 researcher neh buatla satu kajian, kenape kat org2 asia paling kurang dapat OA pada usia tua (ataupun primary OA: OA yang tak disebabkan oleh faktor2 laen melaenkan usia) berbanding dengan org2 barat neh....hasil kajian menunjukkan byk bergantung kepade budaye dan care pemkanan sume tp yg paling2 significant ialah org2 asia neh pling kurang dapat OA sbb dorg byk bersujud dan melutut....

ha...besar tak kuasa Allah...sekecik2 mende tapi memberi impak yang besar dalam kehidupan seharian kite kan?

cigerette is an object with smoke at one end and a fool at the other end.

i am not yet a doctor yet i see lots...all the gruesome truth and saddening views...when one of the 5 gifts given to us is taken away, then only we appreciate the importance of it...

how we long to go back in time and make it right again...

true, the world evolves fast....people are becoming more educated and life is getting easier..we are moving thru all sorts of technologies...its all too good, yet sadly we recognized that health is a simple matter because all the technologies can cure us...so we indulge into the higher class of living and we forgot that prevention is always better than cure...

this is a lame and old issue yet never been able to be implemented in life and is also one of the leading cause of morbidity and mortality worlwide...which is smoking...we keep on smoking, despite all the constant campaign all over the country to make people stop smoking....hadn't we been educated? why is it so hard to understand and believe and then adopt the way of living that keeps us out of harms way? even the ulama had recognized that smoking cigarettes is haram in Islam? why? because its harmful for your health....it is not mere talk, but it is proven by scientific findings...modern people always wanted scientific proof, so there it is...still they won't believe it....why? that's obviously beyond me...all those young people i saw sufferings..their diseases may not be directly because of smoking but maybe indirectly complicated by smoking....yet, they still couldn't stop the stupid habit...how very smart and utterly stupid people can be at the same time? i have heard one of this joke saying a cigerette is an object with smoke at one end and a fool at the other end....

smoking causes all kind of diseases that you can or cannot name...every organs are at risk, even the smallest of all...from the brain that can cause you to have stroke, to the heart that can cause you to get heart attacks, hypertension, to bone fracture that won't heal if you attained an accident, to wounds that also won't heal following a surgery if you need one (who knows?), to the nervous systems and blood vessels that will rot...your kidney that start to fail..all the deadly cancers, the lung diseases that choke you to death...your spouse and child you put at risk because of your selfishness...yes its true that not all people suffers this, and they may stay healthy all their life despite their smoking habit..i would only say that they survive due to mere luckiness...but all these proven scientific findings occured on majority of the smokers world wide...maybe not all of the disease, maybe just one of the conditions..its already bad enough to cause you your life...

i had met one patient, a very young man, 30 year old...who suffered a heart condition that causes his heart to fail and later on he developed kidney failure...there was nothing significant in his history, no family history of heart disease, no childhood history of heart diseases...nothing to suggest what causes his heart to fail at a very young age when he is supposed to be caring for other stuff better than spending his time in the ward...but one thing that is most significant is his smoking habit..he smokes since he was a schoolboy and until before he developed his disease, he had been smoking 2 large packs of cigarette daily.....he stopped after all this failures, but to what expense? to the expense of his lost health? his lost prospect of having a life free from medications and all the side effects? his worry that he might not be able to see tomorrow? not entirely sure to be able to see his little daughters to grow up and be someone useful? yes, it all depends on God's will, but we do have some rights to change our life, take all the effort to avoid harm so that when bad things still happens, we are not to blame for what happened to ourself and then only it is rightful for us to say that it is God's will...do we need to have the disease, then only we'll realize it??

to those who had been smoking, i know it is not easy to stop....it is an addiction caused by nicotine and when this addiction occured, you already have a brain disease whether you realize it or not...i am not being judgemental...one wrong step taken, doesnt mean there is no way out....there is, in fact there are soo many people who wanted to help you...to be able to make life easier for you, to change the world to a better place not only for you but for other people's benefits too....always acquire knowledge on all the successful ways to stop smoking..its all over the web and can be easily found..

for example:

• this is a malaysian website: http://www.myhealth.gov.my/myhealth/eng/dewasa_content.jsp?lang=dewasa⊂=0&bhs=may&storyid=1130125178186
• http://www.cancer.org/docroot/ped/content/ped_10_13x_guide_for_quitting_smoking.asp
• http://www.youngwomenshealth.org/howtoquit.html

adopt a way that best fits you..and if you need help or info, please-please go to the clinic either private or government...there are all these counselling and help that you can get...don't think you are alone but think that you alone can save yourself!

good luck and may God bless us all with good health and ultimately good life...

let's try new stuff!!

yeah..crazy weekend..siyes ku cakap sgt crazy~

why? because everyday is different....obviously

let me share with you what we've been doing...

friday

-early morning we planned to go swimming...yeah, we did arrive at the pool tapi disebabkan he drove me mad about some stupid shit, so he was the only person who managed to get himself inside the pool..whereas i was stucked in the changing room crying my eyes out and yeah, mandi dalam changing room tuh jela..cez kat rumah tak mandi lagi...huk9

-so that day was kinda boring because of what he did, i lost my interest to go out....therefore, terperap jela dalam umah uh sambil mengadu nasib kat blog ngn KI...hohoho...

-bukak pintu bilik and saw a dress....a gift to make up for whatever mistake he'd done...huhuk9..but, still mogok...hahaha....

-until that night, disebabkan lapar, he managed to persuade me to follow him eat out in a Chinese restaurant at Bangi...its located at the block of building beside an-Nur Hospital punye building...ala dekat depan petronas area tuh..yang bangunan with al-ikhsan, JM Bariani..namenye CHICO'S...this is my 1st time going to a Chinese restaurant...pergh, memang mantop ar die punye chinese food (it's halal...don't worry!) it's really nice..i had this mee thingy which i wouldn't know how to pronounce here...and absolutely won't be able to spell it out...i thought i wanna taste the steam bread and dimsum and manto (is this how to spell it?) but then i got too full....maybe next time...and the price is soo cheap...yeah, its worth it to eat there....u guys should try it~~

so END of FRIDAY~

SATURDAY

-morning nothing much done...woke up late and still won't talk to him until he said: JOM GI MINES!..yeah!!! terus loncat dari katil take my bath....and i'm ready!!!

-take a breakfast of ROTI KAYA....fuh..that's my first ever time eating a roti kaya..i thought its gonna taste weird since its a mixture of roti canai and kaya (i HATE roti canai ok!)...i didn't know that its soo nice and refreshing...seriously, maybe because of its sweetness, it helps rejuvenate your life especially as it is the 1st food for the day..anyway, its not a good thing to eat everyday okay? especially for those with diabetes!

-and then we went to Mines.....sooo many people there and its soo happening...! people were shopping for the coming Christmas i guess and man, i can't wait to see the 2nd Chipmunk movie coming up this 24th December. my little sister is their world number one fan...can't even remember how many times she'd watch the movie...huhu..and there were the sales!!!

omg..rase macam nak beli the whole Mines, thank God i am already broke since it is already in the middle of the month...huhu..but then he bought me a nice dress from Nicci...sweetttt..that melts my heart..huk (ain't i a materialistic person??)..so that is the 3rd new stuff i get/tried which is a Nicci dress...(never had soo many of branded clothes before, never thought that i needed to buy expansive stuff anyways)

-and i bought a new novel entitled: NADIA'S SONG by soheir khashoggi...once i am done reading it, i will tell you guys if it is worth reading or not...huhu

-well, jangan ingat kami hanya akan berakhir dalam 1 shopping mall...but we ended going to 4 shopping malls for the day....which makes the 4th crazy stuff i did for this week...

-after Mines we went to Summit Subang Jaya to grab a lunch...we ate a splendid stuff called crispy pizza from HOT AND ROLL...dia macam pizza yang di taruk dalam tepung yang nipis macam apam balik...God, its marvellous!!! the fillings consist of beef pepperoni, cheese, parsley, blackpepper and onion as well

as mayonnaise and chilli sauce..tepung die plak manis macam tepung apam balik...tapi gabungan tepung and filling die neh betol2 mantap...(skrg ingat pon dah meleleh, aihhhhh..seb baek jao!)

-after Summit kami terjah ke CARREFOUR SUBANG JAYA...the main reason we went there was to get a free parking so that we can go to the opposite Subang Parade...hehehehe..but then there, we bought out 5th new stuff which is an umbrella...yeah, we NEVER HAD OUR OWN UMBRELLA!!...hak9...and we also bought eda's brother's wedding gift there....(eda, hang kene bagi aku adiah plak mase aku punye reception nanti!!)

-selepas meround selame dekat sejam setengah dalam carrefour, kitorang pergilaa ke SUBANG PARADE kat sebelah nye...haaa..yang neh pon tak kurang happeningnye..dengan pokok krismas yang tinggi gile sampai ke atap nye...blink2 sume ade....and we met a cowboy with 2 scrawny santa clauses (aren't they supposed to be obese??huk9)....

-pusing2 dalam tuh until we saw this food stall selling BLOGS...hurmmm..pelik tak??? ade plak blog boleh makan kan....but then turned out they sell drinks with the name ends with 'blog'...i really dunno why la...its a weird name anyways....for example, they had this 'oreo chocolate blog'..which is what i bought as my 6th new stuff i tried!....its actually an ice blended drink which is the mixture of teh tarik and oreo biscuit and ice....hak9....funny eh?..tadi kate oreo chocolate blog tetibe ade teh tarik plak r kan...actually it tastes pretty weird and then suddenly i loved the weirdness...amazing! next time i wanna try the cendol blog there...huk9..and you guys can check the website for this BLOG...its written on the cover of the plastic tumbler...

-apart from jalan2 in the mall and being attacked by celebrity fitness promoter, there's nothing much that captures our heart...

-but there's something i really2 wanted to try which is knitting....yeah, that's my new year resolution..to learn knit stuffed toys...hehehehehe

end of Saturday~

SUNDAY...

-kemas rumah je since my in-laws are visiting this coming weekends...TOLLLLOOOOONGGGGGGGG...CANE AKU NAK BUAT NEHHHHH!!!

-its the first time we ever washed the fans..and its soooo dusty!!

-and then went to eda's brother's wedding....

-and not to forget i get what have been denied to me for the past 2 months....yeahhh a fertile, non-pregnant lady again!! hak9

-well, nothing much for this day....huhuhuhu

p/s: till then, i hope u guys gets new idea on what to try next time....nyte!

bila hati disakiti...

benci tu datang balek...

kali neh tambah dengan menyampah..

tambah dengan rase nak jadik killer..

...

kenape aku biar semua neh jadik?

kenape aku tak lari awal2 dulu?

skrg aku da nyesal yang teramat...

aku tak pernah bahagia..

aku cume gembire untuk seketike...

mungkin org akan kate sekurang2nya ko gembire..

tak penah rase sdey...

tp hakikatnye skrg aku lagi rela bersedih dari gembire kejap pastuh sdey balek..

sdey bukan calang2 sdey...

....

ne bukan tempat aku...

aku nak sgt someone take me away...

lepaskan aku dari cengkaman tekanan emosi yang membunuh ni..

aku dah tak betah melawan kesengsaraan ni...

aku da bosan

da benci

da menyampah

sakit hati

sakit jiwa

apabila cicakman datang menjenguk....maka?

talk about adventure and excitement...

hmmmm??? korang sangke ade manusia yang dengan beraninye sanggup berdepan dengan makhluk ciptaan Ilahi nan satu kat dalam umah neh?

ataupun korang rasa si cicakman ini mahu bersemuka dengan kitorang?

atau korang rasa, dia akan berundur setelah mengetahui bahawa dia berpijak dibumi yang salah?

atau korang bajet kami yang akan berundur membiarkan dia bermaharajalela???

hohohohoho

apekebende aku merepek neh..

yerla kalo tgk dalam TV cicak man kan patotnye tolong org...tapi~~

ok..pekebenda yang da jadik sebenarnye neh ek?

ade sekor cicak neh da menjejakkan kaki ke 'casa' kami..

kecik je ha..kaler putih gitu..agaknye baru nak belajar lari....

well tataw laa datangnye dari mane kan....

yang ku tahu, ku masuk dalam kamar tidur and nampak cicak tuh tengah terkontang kanting lari ke arah aku..

aku terkesima~~

tgk je cicak uh semakin lame semakin mendekatiku....

kaki neh tetiba jadi stiff....

jantung berdegup pantas laksana terkena Wolff parkison white syndrome...

pupil constricted....

apabile tetibe...

satu makhluk yang pakai kain pelikat bertentangan dengan aku turut terkinja2 dan menjerit:

"AWAKKKKK, CICAKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" (uh hello...takkanlaa aku kene bukak wikipedia nak taw menatang ape cicak itu....aku tawlaaa tuh cicak!!)

baru ku tersedar..umpama terngadah dan terhantuk dalam mimpi...

lalu terus ku lompat ketepi memberikan laluan kepade cicak itu untuk meneruskan perjalanannya ke destinasi yang sudah pasti tidak ku ketahui....

and then tanye:

"awak,cicak tuh da blah ke?"

"aah..die da masuk toilet ha..."

ermm..okk...hajat nak solat neh...

pastuh bile lalu je kat toilet punye dinding aku nampak kelibat cicakman tuh semule...

bisik hatiku: eehh..salah jalan agaknye cicakman neh....

aku pon mule bertanye pada cicakman: encik cicakman nak gi mana nih?? (ok neh tipu je laa dol)

agaknye cicakman pon terkejut dengan aku terus dia terbang dari dinding tuh dan lari bertempiaran dalam bilik tuh (sumpah aku tak tipu, die terbang dah nak terhinggap kat baju ku)

..naseb ku sempat lari dan menjerit: CICAKKKKK TUH LAAAAAAGGGGGIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!

and loncat atas kerusi kecik kat situ....and mamat yang pakai kain pelikat tuh pon meloncatt menjerit2: MUMMMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dan lari bertempiaran macam cicakman tuh jugak (siyes kalo cicakman tuh betol2 man sure kelakar gile nak mapos)

pastuh cicakman tuh bergayut2 kat towel dan seterusnye menyuruk kat bawah tilam...huk..mane aku nak tido malam neh???

sekali mamat penakut cicak tuh pon pegi plak angkat tilam tuh kan....

pergh mase tuh ingat beranilaa kot...

sekali cicakman tuh bwat SURPRISE!!!!! I AM BACKKKKKK~~~jom lumbe lari smule!!

dan segale jeritan kedengaran...macamlaa godzilla yang datang...duh~~

pastuh si penakut cicak bawak penyapu datang....

hurmmm...nak sapu2..naseb baek cicakman tak masuk dalam kain pelikat...

kang jenuh aku kene carik plak r kann...

tetibe...

dengan sekali libas...

nyawa cicakman tuh berakhir...

(ok fine~anti-klimaks gile story aku neh...tp aku pedulik ape, memang aku rase nak ketawe lagi malam neh...baru ku tahu mamat neh penakot cicak rupenye..MMUUMMMYY???? aduhaiii~)

something that needs to be filled in...

have you ever felt that life is too good to be true?

feels like you get almost everything that you demanded but doesn't feel like you deserve it...

it was said that they allow you to be so profoundly happy if they are ready to take something away from you..

is it true?

i won't say my life is truly happy...satisfactory more like..

i get what i needed..

being supplied with whatever i wanted to make my life adequately comfortable..

it was almost perfect to the point that is getting a bit boring...

it is less adventurous, less exciting....

am i being selfish?ungrateful?

i dunno....it is just how i perceive things in my life...

people may see us going thru hardship...

having to take care of each other's welfare...

live with only the 2 of us...

yeah..it wasn't simple especially when the emotions settles in...

but now it feels empty...

like there's something missing in life....

something that needs to be filled in....

this is soo confusing!!!!!!!!!

the memory keeper's daughter...

read this book...and watch the movie..

it was really good...and touching

it's about a families' turning point in life..

made by a loss of a baby..

not because of death but because of the narrowness of thoughts...

the doctor did not expect that he is going to deliver his own twins..which he also did not predict as to be twins..

yeah, like any parents, its their utmost dream to have a beautiful, perfect and healthy babies..

but what happens if the baby turns out to be not like what they dream of?

and worst still, if they PREDICT that the baby is going to die and breaks their heart later on?

does denying their existence on earth now makes life even better in the future? even easier to move on?

this is the irony in life...

as what one of the actress said : we made mistake, tried to do what is best for that moment and we move on...we thought we could move on~

is it really that easy?

how one rash decision taken during one emotional period changes our life forever..

and we live in regret...

life isn't about just this very moment...but it affects the entire life...

one wrong step and the world crashes upon you...

you have your chances but it will never be the same as what you wanted...

cez that's the price you have to pay for your unthinkable misdeed...

on of the bedtime story in this movie that really brought tears to my eyes was:

one upon a time, there was a bunny who was beautiful and perfect in every way

except she wasn't like every other bunny...

and when she went for a walk the other bunnies will sometimes call her Funny Bunny....

it makes her feel sad

so she went home to Mommy Bunny...

Mommy Bunny took her into her paws and said:

everything is different..

no two flowers are the same,

no two butterflies

and no two bunnies...

and that's why i love you...

you are not my funny bunny,

you're my HONEY BUNNY~~

p/s: really worth watching!

100 things i wanna do in my life..CONT~

51-loss at least 5 kg and maintain it!...so i should be like 50 kg or less

52-buy a cute condo for my personal sanctuary place

53-build a minangkabau or tradisional house in a highland...overseeing the sea!! hwaaaa

54-meet OBAMA..why la?

55-if i have learn how to be a motorbiker: buy a super bike!

56-go on a cruise around the world

57-visit all the places where the Islamic civilazation starts

58-go into pyramid in EGYPT..the real one!

59-get a blackberry as birthday present..beware to those who reads this...hehehe

60-honeymoon at SWISS, MEDAN, ABU DHABI, ITALY and FRANCE

61-climb the grand canyon...hwaa

62-go for white water rafting~

63-learn how to knit

64-knit my own sweaters! hehe

65-go to North Pole watch the sunset like one the movie with jessica alba in it...cant remember the title

66-hug a polar bea6..the tame ones of course

67-learn to horse ride like the cowboy..the fast one..not the lame namby-pamby walking ones

68-swim with the dolphins

69-go aboard the submarine

70-visit niagara falls..and bath in it or swimm..watever as long as i can feel the water on my body

71-be someone's hero

72-make my own beef patties

73-meet koala bears and kangaroo in australia

74-go to MULU cave...and all the caves in malaysia

75-visit Neuchwenstein castle and all the beautiful castles all over the world

76-bring my children to disney world!!

77-learn to make cakes with similar taste as in secret recipe

78-have my own strawberry farm

79-solve the 4x4, 5x5, 6x6 and so on rubix cube...i am done with thee 3x3 ones

80-catch my own fish....really wanna know what its like to battle with the fishes

81-correct my teeth deformity...wear braces

82-be my own boss

83-win a Nobel prize....prove that Muslims are excellent people!!

84-drive the F1 car...or maybe just the go-kart cars...hurm~

85-find all my long-lost school mates and teachers in a reunion

86-should be the 1st in list: graduate to be a safe doctor!!!

87-learn water skiing

88-make my own batik baju kurung that i painted myself..

89-open my own restaurant: serves everything but specialize in eastern-healthy-low cholesterol-low calory but delicious food...i think i'll need a nutritionist for this...hahaha

90-cross the bridge in Sunway Lagoon...haha

91-ride the roller coaster in Times Square: overcome my worst fear of having no control..hohoho

92-make a room with all pink stuff in it..maybe my daughter's room: from the wall colour, to bedsheets, to the curtains, to the lights and fans, to the carpets, to the toys and the list goes on

93-drive my own speedboat

94-make a portrait cross stitch of me and my family...

95-kiss orlando bloom...heee

96-organize bachelor party for my girlfriends before their wedding...habehlaa korang...hak9

97-view KL nights at KL tower

98-stay at least one night in kelong (its like fisherman's house in the middle of the sea)

99-keep a pony, a horse and a cat at my home....make my own zoo more like...

100-achieve all of the above...

100 things i wanna do in my life..

1-buy a house at Paris

2-go paragliding in NZ

3-go for masters in Family medicine

4-go for pilgrimage with my immediate families

5-learn how to skydiving

6-learn to scuba dive

7-climb mount Kinabalu

8-climb mount everest

9-learn to fly a plane

10-learn to fly a kite!

11-make my own swimming pool

12-write my own autobiograph...hahahhaha

13-be a houseman in sabah or sarawak

14-teach medical students...wicked!

15-join WWF...want to save pandas..hurm?

16-open a free clinic

17-give my parents vacations to all around the world

18-reach 2505 visitors in my blog

19-do my wedding reception at putrajaya

20-have my child be my flower girl during the reception (even if its a boy..hahahah!)

21-get an interview on TV

22-fight for women's right!

23-finance zaqieya's education

24-breastfeed all my babies! hehehehehe....

25-fly in a helicopter

26-fly in a hot-air balloon

27-follow MERCY m'sia to disaster areas

28-go for bungee jumping...

29-learn how to hang-glide

30-play snow in Europe

31-drive a 4WD chevrolet or volvo or BMW

32-buy my parents a car: Honda Odyssey

33-have my own flower nursery

34-make a queen-like bedroom

35-learn how to shoot properly..with real guns!

36-understand why people make sushi? cez its really tiring..

37-go to the moon!!!

38-or at least see the earth on a different view.as in not on the planet

39-buy properties so i can get money! hehe

40-read Davidson's clinical medicine in a year

41-make my own mini library

42-learn how to ride a bike...as in be the driver!

43-do a 3000 jigsaw puzzle

44-go skiing

45-learn to dance

46-learn to ice-skate

47-learn to speed reading

48-learn to play piano..too late ke?

49-celebrate my birthday at eiffel tower

50-see palestine for myself

p/s:ok out of idea for now..later eh

a life free from sadness~

salam..

yesterday i did a movie marathon with my sister..

we watched the memory keeper's daughter and the 1st 3 harry potters' movies...(the sorcerer's stone, chamber of secret and prisoner of azkaban)...

all of them have their own moral values

but right now i wanna share about the movie harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban...

why?

because it matches my title...hehehehehe

to those who hav

e watched or

read the harry potter series, i am sure you will understand this (

yeah, i am a harry potter freak! hehehe)

but to those who did not, well, its ok..i'll try to make it easy for you to understand....

this movie is about harry potter who thought that he was in a grave danger when one of a notorious murderer (sirius) escaped the prison namely azkaban. this murderer was his parents' very close friend who had turned them out to the wicked sorcerer aka voldemort and caused them their lives. it turned out that sirius was harry potter's godfather. when harry potter knew

about this, he was extremely angry and seek for revenge only to found out that sirius was actually set up by another friend of harry's parents (peter pettigrew) who they thought had been

murdered by sirius..and thus, sirius is actually innocent.. sirius only escaped from azkaban to protect harry from being anywhere near peter.....as in to kill peter for being the reason of the potter's murder and for him being in jail for like 13 years

harry's happiness being sucked!

before truth were revealed, the castle of hogwarts were protected by a bunch of happiness-sucking creature who guards the prison of azkaban...they are called dementors..the bad thing about this cr

eature is they functions by sucking out happiness from people and leave them soul-less..as in live in total depression

because they feels like never going to be happy again...

so there was one part during a quidditch game (a basketball kind of game played on broomsticks) the dementors had invaded the quidditch field and attacked harry...harry was knocked out..remember, harry has a very sorrowfull past...(his parents were killed in front of him when he was one year old)

so harry was frustrated with how the dementors affected him..therefore he asked one of the

professors to teach him how to counter-attack the dementor....the patronus charm..this charm works only if the wizard casting it has a very good happy memory...only with this happy memory, the dementors can be warded off....

EXPECTO PATRONUM!!!

so here actually it applies to our everyday life..

whenever we are unhappy, and we dwelled in the unhappiness, we are just like a person without soul...we did not give the chance to ourselves to be happy..and then we begin to give up with life..just for one unlucky event, we close the doors in front of us..and we blames the unlucky event for being cruel to us...hadn't we realize that the event is just a reason? it is actually us to blame for not having faith and live in fear of living...

take harry here, he lost his parents when he was one, had to grow up in the most unwelcoming home of his aunty...yet he managed to find strenght and cast a very good happy memory of his parents to help him ward off the dementors..he did not let the dementor take away his soul...the worst fear is fear itself...

happiness is one of excellent medicine for unhappiness or depression...when you are unhappy..don't dwell in it..always remember the good times you had as it has healing powers...think of the funny times and you will laugh by yourself...at that time, you will realize how maddeningly stupid you are for letting the unhappiness take control over your life...remember how harry chase away the happiness-sucking creature by thinking happy? life is not over yet...

your families are there for you...just think of them or better still, be with them..and you will feel the warmth of their love...

have a life free from sadness!

ciao~

where do i begin?

Where do I begin to tell the story

Of how great a love can be

The sweet love story that is older than the sea

The simple truth about the love she brings to me

Where do I start

With her first hello

She gave a meaning to this empty world of mine

There'd never be another love another time

She came into my life and made the living fine

She fills my heart

She fills my heart

with very special things

With angel songs, with wild imaginings

She fills my soul with so much love

That any where I go

I'm never lonely

With her along who could be lonely

I reach for her hand. It’s always there

How long does it last

Can love be measured by the hours in a day

I have no answers now but this much I can say

I know I'll need her until the stars all burn away

And she'll be there

How long does it last

Can love be measured by the hours in a day

I have no answers now but this much I can say

I know I'll need her until the stars all burn away

And she'll be there

p/s: lagu music box yang sgt sy suke...hehehehehe...sweet!!

the annoying shadow that is killing me again and again

BENCI dengan bende2 yang lembab neh...

tak kire la laptop neh ataupon manusia tuh...

gunenye INTEL PENTIUM tu untuk berfikir

gunenye otak jugak untuk berfikir...

takkan bende mudah nak disuruh dulu baru buat?

takkan baju2 dah campak dalam mesin basuh nak tunggu jugak org laen tekankan suis on nye?

apesal susah sgt?

takkan benda mudah untuk ditanya nak disuruh tanya baru nak tanya?

camtu bo

le ke nak bwat history taking yang lg memerlukan critical thinking?

susah sgt ke nak utilize brain cells tuh?

nak tggu reput dulu baru gune?

hishhhh33 panasnyee aku!!

aku dah bosan dengan maaf..

lagi2 mintak maaf..

pastuh buat jugak silap yang sama...

tak pernah nak berfikir dengan logik..

dari dulu sampai sekarang..

and that's just another reason for me not being able to respect you...

for me u are just another annoying shadow that i have to live with..

oh God....kecewanya aku...

jgn tinggal kan sy...tp tinggalkan komen anda...hahahah

salam...

neh kak paa punye pasal la

kalo tak tataw kesah...

rupe2nye salah setting so org takley leave a comment here...

so godek2 punye godek

siap sempat tukar template lg...

dan membuang mase yang patutnye digunekan untuk study presentation esok..

akhirnye sy jumpe punce masalahnye...

taik tol...padahal terang tang2 die dok depan mate tp setelah hampir sejam baru ku perasan

haihhhhhhh

nway dear friends..do leave a comment k? hehehee

thanx~

yang pergi datang kembali...

wah...tajuk yg seram sekali....

maksud pergi sy disini ialah hilang~as in hilang harte bende yang kt sangke takkan jumpe kembali...

so sini sy nak share satu cite neh...

last 2 weeks sy kehilangan wallet ngn hp sy kat hosp serdang...

hurm frustrated habesla cez dalam tuh ade tiket ktm ntk balek raye haji..

naseb baek tade duet dalam tuh...adelah jugak tp dalam 6-8 rinngit je...

so tadela terkilan amat sgt...

lepas tuh pasrah jela kan...

pegila bwat IC baru...abeh burn rm60..dahla gmbr pon huduh je cez baru pas swimming di panas terik...jadik hitam n berkilat sume la muke...

n bwat kad bank..

lesen...

beli hp

wallet baru..

bla3

and then nak dijadikkan cite, yesterday pegi umah lame kat subang jaya uh..

dapatla sepucuk surat ntk sy...yng tade setem..hmm..pelik

bukak2 ade 2 keping tiket ktm sehari sebelum raye haji..

fuh~terperanjat hambe...

disertakan sekali num fon seorg insan neh..

so call la...

taw2 rupenye die jmpe my stuf...all intact..and nak kembalikan kat sy...

nampaknye sebenarnye harte sy itu masih lagi amanah ntuk sy...

belum ditakdirkan untuk sy kehilangannye selame2nye..

dan yang lebih menarik lg kesanggupan insan tuh ntk kembalikan tiket tuh sbb takot ade org laen takley nak balek raye haji...

and of course, to take care of my stuff....

sdgkan die boleh je campak memane or buat tak endah sebab bukan die dapat profit apepon dgn mengamek mende2 sy tuh yg tade berisi...kalo ade rm50 mgkn berbaloi la die nak carik sy n pulangkan barang2 tuh...

rupe2nye ade lagi manusie yg berhati mulia kat dunia neh..

kt tak nmpk...

kdg2 kite salu buruk sangke dan buatkan kite hidup dalam paranoia...

padahal ade org diluar sana yang nak sgt tolong kite walau sedikit..

yang kite nampak hanye keburukan..

yang positif n indah kt pandang sebelah mate...menganggap tuh cume norma kehidupan...

sdgkan yg positif2 nehla kt nak terus bajai....

supaye kt rse lbih aman hidup bermasyarakat neh...

mungkin jugak kt kehilangan sesuatu yang kt nampak macam tak mungkin kt nak dapat smule, tak kirela, org ke barang ke rumah ke ape ke....

mane tau berkat kesabaran dan keredhaan kt, kt akan dibalas smule dgn dikembalikan smule ape yang kt hilang tuh dgn mende yang same atau dalam bentuk yg lain..

so now all we have to do is just be POSITIVE~

insyaAllah...

kenapa dia? kenapa aku?

umpama ombak yang tak pernah tenang...

hati ini selalu bicara...

kenapa jalan ini yang jadi laluan

hidup ku?

kenapa laluan ini yang jadi wayang hidup ku?

ini bukan impian aku...

lalu ini jadi takdirku...

hati yang berat menerima, kekosongan yang kian terasa...

kekacauan yang tak pernah berkesudahan..

ketidakpuasan yang tak mampu dipuaskan

kekeliruan yang tak terluahkan...

lalu bagaimana ingin ditempuh lagi?

mampukah diri ini mulai redha dengan ketentuan Ilahi dan berusaha menerimanya?

sudah berulang kali ingin dilembutkan hati, tapi syaitan terus membelenggu aku...

lalu hati kelabu jadi hitam...benci yang cuba di pendam timbul kembali..

dendam yang tak terleraikan datang menghantui...

aku mula serabut....

lupa yang hak dan batil kepada dia yang umpama tuan kepada aku...

kesilapan tak mahu lagi dimaafkan...

ah..pabila saat itu menjelma, tak ingin lagi ku pedulikan tentang dia...

meskipun diri ini cuba dia tenteramkan...cuba dia isi kekosongan...cuba dia beri kasihnya..

tapi tak ingin lagi aku terima...

sampai bila harus begini?

nyatanya aku keliru dengan duniaku...

nyatanya aku masih belum mampu melupakan masa-masa hitamku dahulu...

nyatanya aku masih belum memaafkan kenangan lampau...dia dan aku...

membuat aku tersekat ditampuk lama...

bukan aku tak cuba kembalikan saat pertama kali aku kenalinya...saat cinta bisa mengubah masa depan ku...

tapi semua bagaikan sia-sia sahaja...

bahagia hanya sementara..

gembira hanya yang terpamerkan diwajah..

sedangkan hati ini bercelaru mencari hikmah disebalik semua ini...

lelah sudah aku dengan pusingan emosi yang tak pernah henti...

oh Tuhan....aku mohon dipermudahkan segala kerenah hati ini...dan ditunjukkan apa yang terbaik buatku...