crap-nuggets~

you may say shitty things to me, condemn me on my faults but you will have no idea that i 

have been trying my very best, learning and working...then, i'll say it is you who is blind to see..i 

know who i am, and all the expectations surrounding me,  but even i believe nobody can produce

 miracles...

confidence

a strong and remarkable word, should one have it, it makes you a charismatic person..
a word i wish i am able to describe myself with...
one simple stupid mistake and all the little confidence left in me is shattered to pieces....
its madness, how building confidence takes all the strength and determination a person have and its ruined in a blink of an eye...
God help me...
i know mistakes happens for a reason and i am thoroughly relieved that the mistake doesn't lead into disastrous end...it was an excellent reminder for me so i wouldn't make real mistakes in the future...but it was painful, it makes me real scared to move on and built up again~